Warning: Spoilers if you haven't watched Sunday's episode of E!'s "Keeping Up With the Kardashians."
Kim Kardashian says she has lost her hunger for media and public attention on Sunday's episode of E!'s "Keeping Up With the Kardashians."
"I just don't want to be in the mix the way that I used to," Kim said in a scene on the E! reality show, "how desperate I was, going to every restaurant every night, like only wanting to be seen, knowing that all the TMZ cameras were there, so I'd run, flock to those places."
Two things happened on Sunday's episode that led to Kim's statements that she no longer craved media attention. The first being a set of photos of her in a bikini during an April vacation in Mexico that she didn't like and attracted criticism of the mother of two's cellulite.
"Oh my god," Kim said, as she looked at the photos while lounging by the pool with her friends. "Like, I don't get it! Like, I literally don't look like this!"
On the show, she freaked out over the photos and obsessed over what people were saying on social media.
"I'm doing all the steps to try to be as private and discreet as possible and then you take pictures. And if they're not, like, perfect people just, like, body-shame you... for people to just think that's OK is so frustrating."
After talking about it with her friends/employees, Kim tried to rise above it, at least publicly.
But she claims on the show that the public scrutiny isn't the real reason for her change of heart over public attention. Earlier on the episode, she suffered a tearful meltdown over whether the vacation home they were in was safe.
Kim was feeling anxiety as a result of the 2016 robbery in Paris in which she was kept hostage while her assailants stole her engagement ring from husband Kanye West, and other jewels totaling $9.5 million. It later became known that they used her social media to plan the crime.
"I have such anxiety just going places," she said on the episode. "I get it. I'm in the spotlight, you go out in public and people can takes pics – it's not that annoying part. It' s just that I don't want it to be said that Kim was here, Kim went to the restaurant, I just don't want to be in the mix the way that I used to."
It's especially strange for Kardashian to say she that she now shies away from the media and public attention. She initially became famous by being seen in public with then-bigger celebrities, such as Paris Hilton, and then later became a megastar by allowing E!'s cameras to capture her and her family's life on "Keeping Up With the Kardashians."
"Keeping Up With the Kardashians" airs at 9 p.m. ET Sundays on E!.